Sunday, September 18, 2011

“ Life happens when you are busy making plans “

I constantly think about the future. The tomorrow is haunting my dreams and gulping my life .
I feel a deep melancholy and for some reason angry. 
I have always wanted to be treated , not differently but just right. I counted on some people to beautify my existence but I ended up disappointing myself. Till far,only few worth my trust. However, I cannot deny how scary it is for me: The single thought of being left or forgotten. It scares me because I give too much to not say everything. 
I would like to keep faith in people, to believe that they are not all alike. Otherwise, it would break my heart into pieces reflecting my despair and fear. 
There is indeed a black hole inside of me. A kind of unbearable emptiness is eating me; but my within is silent.
Yes even with these couple of lines, it is still silent. My screams are quiet .
I miss the feeling of belonging ;but I tracked down truth and now I just want to stick to the never ending happiness: The Love Of Almighty God .

[ Published especially for my friend Lizna.. In the process of following each other’s paces]