Showing posts with label Nocturnal Writings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Nocturnal Writings. Show all posts

Friday, July 19, 2013

Of Spice and Spirit : The Anecdote .

The supermarket, one day before the holy month.
That is the place where you would like to be. Unless you are claustrophobic and hate the crowd. The moment I stepped into the place , I was instantly attracted by the colorful spices which occupied a significant spot in the market. I headed towards it and of course dragged my parents and my brother with me. We were in short of some essential spices, that is why they did not object and followed me.
Worldwide spices.
This is truly heavenly.
When my father asked the man in charge to scale some spices for us, the man kindly said “ self-service sir.” I rejoiced in the thought of getting a bit of everything; but of course it was absurd. What I did was even more absurd and juvenile. I took out my camera and snapped some shots of the vivid spices. A most cherished moment needs to be captured for sure.
I soon jumped on the red powders : both chili and paprika were needed at home. I asked father about whether or not we can get some curry . He refused first thinking I did not know how to use it ; but when I confirmed that I watched enough food programs to know the usage of curry, he agreed upon my request and I giggled like a little girl who has just gotten her cotton candy.
On the other side of the spot were different types of beans and lentils, something which cannot escape father’s gaze. He was an admirer of soups and with the holy month’s arrival, he would of course welcome all we can offer him. The lentil soup will be a dish he will brag about later on, as he cooks it by himself. He considered one type of lentils ; but was not quite sure about the way to cook it. His nature compels him to question one of the chefs behind the counter selling ready meals. The chef was Egyptian and knew perfectly how to handle such dishes. Devotedly , he instructs father who was by the end satisfied for the load of valuable information he received. He ran to my mother repeating what the chef told him and warning her about not adding salt at first. An advice coming directly from a chef.
 As we proceeded to the vegetable and fruits area, we remarked the existence of tomatoes and peach coming directly from our home country. The prices were at least four times doubled because these are now imported products; Nevertheless we were caught in a nostalgic moment and finally decided to move along to other sections.
I was undergoing a mental tumult trying to remember what I had forgotten exactly.
Two insanely frustrating feelings which I completely abhor are: not finding a particular object and fighting to remember something that fled my memory.
Aha ! The bright color of Tunisian tomatoes brought me back the image of pizza and I almost shouted “pizza herbs” . I asked permission from my parents to go back to the spices section and insisted that they do not leave the spot for the market was so spacious I feared we would waste time looking for each other.
I hurried back to the my destination and selected some fresh basil and pizza oregano. I was also attracted by the exquisitely definable smell of  “Za'atar” . There were two kinds. One from Lebanon and the other from Jordan. I could not honestly tell the difference and I selected the brighter color--that from Jordan. I have already drawn a plan for the Za'atar. A plan whose source of inspiration is rooted 8 years back in my past.
I was here, nearly by the same time of the year only Ramadhan came later on. My father managed to enroll me and my brothers in a summer school-- an experience the taste of which I never knew before that summer. I had left my friends in my country and was still newly exposed to the new cultures around me. I did not even master the language and could only manage my way out with what I captured from Egyptian and Syrian tv shows and programs. During breaks, the headmistress would call everybody to line up and ge
t their share of juice and newly-baked pastry. The smell of croissant with Za'ater would hit my nostrils and tickle my brain even before entering the school’s cafeteria. It was not everybody’s favorite. The other girls favored fancier toppings and fillings. I have to admit it was in my favor as they never ran out of my choice and I don’t have to be in the first lines to get what I desired.
A most affordable luxury.That was the only place where I had that kind of pastry.
Emerging from the memory which the herb woke in me, I realized I had to await my turn to hand the portions to the man in charge for the spices. He would put the price on them and I would ran back to my parents .
He was unmistakably Asian, perhaps from the Philippines; but I can never be sure. I am not Father. Father has spent over twenty years in this country and he would identify most of the nationalities here.
The man is of medium-height , all covered in white cloth. Hands gloved and hair carefully combed back. His speed was remarkable. He must have been here for a long period of time and had a lot of practice. He could name all the different spices and he definitely did not need a tag on them to recognize them.
 My stream of thoughts were broken when a woman on my right side , outrageous, was sighing repeatedly , trying to expose her impatience to the world. She then screamed “YALLA YALLA” and kept muttering words of complaint .  It was obvious she could barely speak proper English in the way she formed her next sentence “ MAKE IT QUICK” . Did I say ‘proper English’ ? I meant proper manners.
I was utterly disgusted by her tone . Not only she completely turned a blind eye on me by not recognizing that I was in the line before her ; but she also imposed her attitude and confirmed her disrespect by shoving the plastic bags in her hand onto a huge bag of beans separating her from the man in charge.
I felt I was standing under a rainy sky and that I was sinking in shame. The scene made me feel so uncomfortable and I imagined a whole scenario between the woman and I where I am mostly holding up to a mild face being all sarcastic about the necessity of clinging to fairness and justice while dealing with others--especially that we are at the threshold of a holy month. We need to compensate for our wrong doings and think about efficient ways of bettering ourselves.
However once the woman got her bags with prices tagged on them, she flew away like a furious dragon breathing out fire. I thought perhaps it was better that I did not talk to her. I knew girls like her. They fancy making scenes. They are impatient and claim not having much time ; but they surely have time for fights and screams. Another thought then hit me. Perhaps that is not her true nature. Perhaps she is just having a bad day and the poor man was just in the way. She jammed her anger against him. Anyone could have been the victim. But again, that is still an inappropriate conduct.
“Miss, miss” I lifted my head to see a hand stretched before me. My turn. I was still befuddled by what has just happened but I put on a large smile , a sympathetic one. I believe it delivered the message for me. “ Don’t let such people ruin your day. You have now a customer who is smiling to you.” The man smiled back and soon gave me back my herbs. I made sure I said “ thank you sir” before I took off hurriedly thinking I was late for my parents. I found them right where I left them. They were discussing the price of imported tomatoes we saw earlier. My dad stubbornly persisted they must be organic tomatoes. For him , that would be the only justification behind the high price. 

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Scent of a Flower, Blood of a Wolf : Wolf's Rain REVIEW


         Useful notes: The post in named after the title of the seventeenth episode of Wolf's rain.
I recommend you play this song for a more sensational reading. [click]


         The ambiguous ending of Wolf’s Rain proved to hinder the viewers’ from reaching the satisfaction requisite at the end of each cherished animé. From Themanime.org to Nihonreview.com  , reviewers could not refrain from observing that the show offers a great disappointment especially on the level of the resolution . A show during which one can have no command on both brain and tears fails to meet the expectations of the viewers who longed for a less confusing end. What I also deduced is that the four RECAP episodes, which were by the way unaired in the US, have driven the viewers a bit contemptible. In fact, they entailed a rough reproach because the only new thing it introduced to the audience was an amazing song entitled “Tell Me What The Rain Knows” composed by the legendary Yoko Kanno and sung by the wonderful Maaya Sakamoto. The criticism mainly rebuked these four episodes which seem to have a sole aim: It is to stretch out the show to reach thirty episodes. For this reason, the viewer ends up growing weary. The idea of recapitulation, being superfluous and burdensome, is thus not much of a genius idea.
          Encountering such opinions, I had to pave a way to my own point of view.  Ever since I watched the animé in 2006, I felt bound to loosen the ties around my personal view concerning the show. The idea grew with me; but it has not been developed until recently for I was lacking both style and language to express it. My own explanation of the ending has fed on my beliefs and personal perspective of the world. Far from being disappointed, my tears were shed for the might of the message conveyed throughout the story.
          Paradise is ubiquitous. It resides inside of its believer. “Where I fly is hell [paradise], myself am hell [paradise] “to reformulate John Milton’s words from Paradise Lost.. Or should I say Paradise Resurrected?  It is true that the last episode is soaked in bleak pessimism: Lord Darcia’s misleading words constrain us to think that it is fruitless to nourish oneself with a sense of belonging in and an obligation towards the clan. According to him, one has but oneself to look after. The rest are but obstacles. It is needless to heed attention to what holds one back. Nonetheless, Lord Darcia’s speech did not influence me much because I knew the true source of those words. His callous-hearted nature, his unjustified cruelty and obviously well-deserved curse put him in the shadows when it comes to giving advice.  Reversing the spell foretells the necessity of belonging in order to preserve a sense of pride, and hence a strongly-entrenched identity. Lord Darcia has lost himself in the process of transformation: Being a noble classifies him in a precise category; but attaining the form of a wolf rejects him to an undisclosed position. A cursed half-lord half-wolf – who was doomed to lose the love of his life Amona — was driven to avenge her death by massacring what, is already threatened with extinction.  The wolves are a symbol of sacredness as they are the only ones capable of opening Rakuen. They gain an important level of holiness not for this matter only, but because being endangered goes back to the fact that they form a clan. 
The RECAP episodes are, to my fancy, a means to shed light on the thread linking the four wolves. Four episodes for four wolves.. Not a very bad idea, by the end. They serve as a reminder of what connects these creatures to each other. They depict their story from the very beginning to the end, almost like a bildugsroman putting emphasis on their social and psychological development. Eventually, they grew to be a kin, united for the same cause, guided towards one destination with one key to paradise and one destiny. Assembled, they form a well-knit community which is almost the rarest thing to be found. This state of perfectibility cannot, of course, be stained. That is why Kiba, the last survivor, does not kill Darcia as the latter unknowingly poisons himself with Chesa’s blood. Being loathed by the purest of creatures, he gets to be completely sacked out of paradise.
        
            Undoubtedly, evil cannot be entirely exterminated from the world. It can hide between the white flowers like a harmless “worm” with “no teeth for the present”; but “in time” it will “breed” “venom”. This metaphor, originally used by Shakespeare’s Macbeth brings out an undeniable truth in life: The chain of malice never ends. A sorrowing fact to admit; but it is only because the world needs to be balanced with both the good and evil forces existing in it.
The following is a construction of musings inspired by Lord Darcia’s statement.
There is neither perfect happiness, or joy, or life. This is because it [life] also does not contain perfect sadness, misery or death.

This impossible existence of wholesomeness drives one insane.
It compels us to strive In order to reach the perfect state. 
Then, inevitably, we drift away when we meet with reality. 
Not so pleasant. Do we keep deluding ourselves? 
Is it our nature to wretch and prefer to be confined in a dream,
A boundless dream?
Nothing is enough for us. We dream of the impossible. 
We admit its impossibility and yet we live to reach it. 
We breathe in our despair and exhale all hopes for change. 
It is utterly ludicrous to build a future upon mere fantasies and to construct plans based on unrealistic visions.
How discreditable it is to be so remote from the world.                               
                   Oh world of reveries, ensnare us not in your spider web.
We have a present to live fully, to ponder thoroughly upon our futile existence for it should be fructified and prettified. 
Goodbye Hyacinth garden.            
        I reckon you and I cannot be unified. 
Long-sought Rakuen, keep calling me.           
         I have not abandoned the quest.  
 The luring moon will be always there to remind me of you. 
It will draw my path and lead me to infinity 
where all ends and all lives.

They say there’s no such place… as Paradise. Even if you search to the ends of the Earth, there’s nothing there. No matter how far you walk, it’s always the same road. It just goes on and on. But, in spite of that… Why am I so driven to find it? A voice calls to me… It says, “Search for Paradise.

Why do humans always look to the sky? Why do you try so hard to fly when you don’t have any wings?
__Kiba


I particularly liked a comment on YouTube which I find relative to my topic and worth sharing.
“  As humans we are always trying to find our purpose in life and hoping that what we do here on earth is not in vain. We continue searching for "ourselves" and living our lives in hopes that one day we might find a paradise. We all hope to be able live in a world where there is no worries and there is no pain and we can finally be free...but sometimes you begin to think if "paradise" is just a fairy tale. Like Quent said,"The thing about fairy tales is . . . there's always some truth in 'em."   ”